The graveyard in the neighbourhood

This week’s artist date was to visit a graveyard. And so I did. I must say that it was not a very pleasant experience. Maybe I should have expected that.

The graveyard was completely deserted. I didn’t see a single person. It was very beautiful in autumn colors and the crows that seemed everywhere created a deadly atmosphere.

It made me really sad and I regretted that I came there in the first place. I didn’t know any of the persons who lay there but I was imagining stories of their life and death.

It scared me to see that life is ending and it can do so at any point. There is no security that our loved ones will be around with us. Sooner or later we will all die.

It was definitely thought provoking, but not in a positive way. Of course it provides a contrast to the daily chaos showing that life has an end and some things are just not important. Although it did not make me reflect my priorities. I haven’t asked myself what I want to accomplish before death.

I felt my loved ones very strongly on this graveyard and I feared loosing them to a place in the earth. I do not fear death for myself, but for the ones that make my life worth living.

My non glamorous life

It’s been a week since I promised regular postings and here I am not knowing what to write. This blog was supposed to be a place for my glamorous life, but now I don’t have a glamorous life anymore. I guess you have to get used to a new me.

I could start describing the life that I am living right now. I work part-time in a software company. We do E-Commerce. I am working as support agent, but I also do a lot of HTML and CSS work. I decided to do a further education in Web-Development and I’m gonna start with this in October probably.

I am still giving dance classes in our studio and I am learning the Arabic language. It gives me great joy to study and practice it. I still dream to move to Dubai, but I don’t know if I will really do it. I hope that I can visit the city next year and then decide if I like it or not.

As you see I lead a normal life and it is not glamorous at all. I didn’t do any photo-shootings for ages and I don’t know when I will find the time to do one. I will continue posting great pictures of me, because I still have some old ones that are pretty good.

I still live in Berlin. I like my home, but I also dream of leaving it and seeing more of the world. I hope that I can do that soon. After I finish my Web-Developer training, I want to become self-employed and I hope that I will have better chances to travel then. Right now I’m lacking the money and also the bravery.

Back to Work

Summer Vacation is over. Everyone’s got back to work. For me this means teaching belly dance three times a week. I was really excited to get myself moving again after six weeks of physical lazyness. And I was so happy to see my students again.

Also I have some ideas to expand my business: to make new choreographies, to think of new challenges for my students, to create a new group in Berlin, etc.

Besides that I want to grow even more when it comes to performances. I want to do more and better shows as a dancer and as a singer. I need to use existing material well and produce new stuff for marketing: texts, images, audios and videos.

Since I am doing this full time now, I hope that I can achieve bigger results than before and I hope that I will be able to pay my bills at the end of the month. But hey, no risk no fun!

Happy Birthday Toria

Good Morning everyone. Today is the birthday of my favorite one and only sister. I am very happy, that I have a little sister who was always there for me. Even when I had no friends (cause I’m kind of a difficult character…) my sister was there and played with me. I have so many memories of funny and crazy things, that we did together.

My favorite memory is actually that one time, when we brought the clothes-sharing to a new dimension by wearing one super big T-Shirt together pretending we were siamese twins. It was not easy! But somehow we managed to get down the stairs together, laughing so hard, that everyone came to see what’s happening to us. I’d love to share a picture from this adventure, but I couldn’t find it on my computer.

The second funniest memory is when we were running through the park in St. Petersburg. This was so funny, because we were not children at this time anymore. But we were shouting while running and laughing so hard that all the people were staring at us. Look at this: She’s gonna catch me!

Happy Birthday Queen Viktoria I
Socken müssen zusammen halten. 🙂

Take a deep breath

Good Morning everyone. Despite the fact that I actually have vacation from my classes, I am still very very busy … and slowly I come to the conclusion, that it might be a bit too much…

It seems now, that there are 3 more weeks before I finally have some time off. But who knows what adventures will come up by that time? 😉 I don’t

And so – to not mess up with my health completely – I try to take some breaks inbetween, wandering through the greenness outside, trying to feel connected with the world around me.

But what I know at least is that even if I there might be a lot coming up after these 3 weeks, it’ll be the kind of activities, that I love doing. So I am definitely looking forward to it.

But now, perseverance is the virtue of the day.
What is your secret to keep with the pace?